David has absolutely no idea how to respond to that. He's been through some things in his life, he's definitely had his share of awfulness, but he's never been through anything remotely like what Derek is talking about.

There were times he thought he might lose Alexis, mostly because she was off somewhere doing something incredibly stupid, but he's not sure what he would have done if something bad had actually happened to her.

"Holy shit," he says, pausing in his ordering. "Oh my god, we need so many ribs in that case." It sounds so stupid, but it's the only thing he can think to say.