"Oh, bowling is a good idea," I agree, not quite able to stop myself from wondering if Derek taking Thomas had been an attempt at a date even if he hadn't called it that. It's not difficult now to picture Derek letting loose now as often as I've seen it and it's nice to know he could do that around Thomas. Of course, there's still that ache in my chest, that stupid little ball of jealousy centered around the knowledge that Derek would never want that with me, but it's easier to rationalize with Thomas for some reason. It makes complete sense that Derek is attracted to him given that he's the identical twin to the person he fell in love with, and might still be in love with.

I'll never be that. I never could be that. And that's okay, I guess.

"I haven't been bowling myself in years," I continue, trying to shove thoughts of Derek aside. "I wonder if Simon ever has. He might have an advantage what with being a wizard, but it'd still be fun, I think." Either that or he'll accidentally melt the bowling ball. Which might also be funny. "That's a really good idea, thank you! You know, you say you're not good at this sorta stuff, but I think evidence is proving the opposite," I tell him with a teasing wink.