It's not the first time I've heard someone describe me as cute (not even the first time with as fuck tacked onto the end thanks to Shitty) and it's never really bothered me before. As nice as Kate means to be though, I know cute isn't really going to get me far with someone who looks like Derek. Not when it comes to something like this.

"I'm not gonna stop caring about him even if he doesn't wanna be with me," I point out, still frowning down at my hands. "And he cares about me, too. I know he does. He really is the only reason I'm alive right now so I know... I know he cares. It's stupid to want more. Selfish. And it's not like-- I mean, I have a date on Saturday with a really nice, really cute guy and I want to like him the way I do Derek. I really, really do."