Derek feels the overwhelming urge to crawl into a hole in the woods and never come out. But he can't. He has a business to run, and a cat and puff duo to feed. And also now a bar to run, apparently.
The worst part about spending a week as a teenager is that he remembers it all. He remembers what it felt like to be happy, to have hope, and to be unburdened. He remembers with crystal clarity what it was like to not be weighed down with so much guilt and pain that each step is a struggle. He remembers what it was like for his family to be alive, and how much he loved each and every one of them, how they stretched his heart big and wide and made him this warm and open person. He remembers every fucking bit of it, and it makes it that much harder to keep going on now that it's all been taken away again.
Also, he remembers making a gigantic ass of himself to pretty much all of his friends.
He woke up in Luke's spare room and had to face him, feeling embarrassed and nearly unable to function under the crushing weight of grief. It was like losing his family, losing Stiles, all over again. It was like all the wounds were ripped open anew, and he had no idea how to handle it.
So he ran. He spent time in the woods, howling and running and destroying, only to get back to his cabin to find an envelope on his front porch. It contained a set of keys, the deed to Semele's, and a letter from the city stating that Sookie Stackhouse was no longer a resident of Darrow.
Sometimes he really hates this fucking city.
All he wants to do is fight, rage, do anything that isn't just sit around and feel this pain. It's then that he remembers the vampires, and how he had planned on going to talk to Dean about the problem. It was delayed a week, thanks to his vacation from misery, but now there's all the more reason. There's all the reason to avoid Dean, at least for a little while, after that embarrassing fucking display while he was a teenager, but he sucks it up and gets dressed before heading over.
When he gets to their place, he doesn't smell Castiel inside, but he hears Dean's heart. Derek is a little relieved, not because he doesn't want to see Castiel, but he thinks this is something that may be better handled between just him and Dean. He's pretty sure Dean will understand what Derek needs right now, and he'll be willing to help.
Derek wants to be destructive, wants to rage and pick a fight, but he doesn't want to do that to anyone or anything that doesn't deserve it. But these vampires? They definitely do.
He swallows hard and lifts his hand to knock.
The worst part about spending a week as a teenager is that he remembers it all. He remembers what it felt like to be happy, to have hope, and to be unburdened. He remembers with crystal clarity what it was like to not be weighed down with so much guilt and pain that each step is a struggle. He remembers what it was like for his family to be alive, and how much he loved each and every one of them, how they stretched his heart big and wide and made him this warm and open person. He remembers every fucking bit of it, and it makes it that much harder to keep going on now that it's all been taken away again.
Also, he remembers making a gigantic ass of himself to pretty much all of his friends.
He woke up in Luke's spare room and had to face him, feeling embarrassed and nearly unable to function under the crushing weight of grief. It was like losing his family, losing Stiles, all over again. It was like all the wounds were ripped open anew, and he had no idea how to handle it.
So he ran. He spent time in the woods, howling and running and destroying, only to get back to his cabin to find an envelope on his front porch. It contained a set of keys, the deed to Semele's, and a letter from the city stating that Sookie Stackhouse was no longer a resident of Darrow.
Sometimes he really hates this fucking city.
All he wants to do is fight, rage, do anything that isn't just sit around and feel this pain. It's then that he remembers the vampires, and how he had planned on going to talk to Dean about the problem. It was delayed a week, thanks to his vacation from misery, but now there's all the more reason. There's all the reason to avoid Dean, at least for a little while, after that embarrassing fucking display while he was a teenager, but he sucks it up and gets dressed before heading over.
When he gets to their place, he doesn't smell Castiel inside, but he hears Dean's heart. Derek is a little relieved, not because he doesn't want to see Castiel, but he thinks this is something that may be better handled between just him and Dean. He's pretty sure Dean will understand what Derek needs right now, and he'll be willing to help.
Derek wants to be destructive, wants to rage and pick a fight, but he doesn't want to do that to anyone or anything that doesn't deserve it. But these vampires? They definitely do.
He swallows hard and lifts his hand to knock.